I have about a dozen posts I want to make, lots of book reviews, talking about the fun social stuff I've been doing, thoughtful essays about things like the future of LJ, ageing, stuff from Limmud that I still haven't caught up with... However, I am in a bit of an uncommunicative mood, and it's not helped by feeling overwhelmed with all the stuff I need to post about before I can post about other stuff. I have several emails that I've started and am not really making headway with too.
On a practical level, I have the first of my bar mitzvahs this Saturday, and my first ever opportunity to give a real lecture in my actual professional field on Tuesday. Both of those are things that I'm hugely looking forward to, but both require intellectual and logistical preparation, and I'm really struggling with procrastination. So as much as I am capable of getting my act together in this mood, those have to be the priority.
Many apologies; I'm not really managing my own life very well just now, let alone being there for friends. And I don't even know what's brought this funk on, there is plenty of light (bright skies over snow) and I've had lots of highly social fun in the past couple of weeks, and I have interesting things going on at work, and I've been enjoying plenty of really positive chats with friends. But I'm not entirely coping.
aw possum! (i know that response is likely to get a scowl from you but...) no need to apologise. you don't need to feed us/me. concentrate on doing your lecture and bar mitzvah well. sometimes i feel when i do lots of good stuff i have a little low period afterward. (i so know about the posts-before-posts thing but i've never, ever managed to get them out and i don't think anyone's noticed)
Good luck with the lecture / bar mitzvah stuff. Hope things come together a bit; look after yourself, and worry about the rest of us when you've got that sorted.
I hope the lecture and the bah bitzvahs go well, and I expect they will!
FWIW, I feel the same about posting before I post post stuff; I try to ignore it and just post whatever I feel like (and put anything i feel I must post into whatever todo list works for me) and that gets more posted in the end than if I try to do it in any rational order.
You have my sympathies and my confidence, and I look forward to hearing about them having come together and worked well. I'll drop a line if I'm on chat at any sensible hour for you between now and then.
You know, frmo almost anyone else that would be a post giving rise to *hugs*, but I'm fairly sure that that's not why you wrote this here. It'll pass, right? Like always, times of not coping, ferocious or mild, pass. So it'll pass, and I'm utterly sure that you can get through without breaking under the strain of what you're not quite sure what is that is things changing and demanding and just never stopping so that you can take stock. Or something, perhaps I'm just rambling. No hugs, but confidence that you can cope and will cope and have friends with huge amounts of understanding for when you're not quite there for now.
I am available for chatting. Stating to people that I am down is often the first stage of moving back to the up, for me. Hope this may also be the case with you.
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