And several people, people who mean a great deal to me, came and gave me hugs and sensible advice and made me virtual tea. You made me feel so much better, people. I know it's the stereotype of LJ that people post looking for sympathy and get duty *hug*s from their friends list, but my friends were much nicer than that and gave me real comfort. And nobody told me to shut up and stop being an idiot, which is probably what I deserved (though telling myself that was of course reinforcing my awful mood and self-hating stupidity). So, hatam_soferet, rysmiel, darcydodo, blue_mai and lethargic_man, I love all of you and thank you so much for looking after me! Also much gratitude to redbird and monanotlisa who said cheering things which weren't directly connected to my self-indulgent whining.
Obviously that doesn't mean I love my other friends less. Not everybody is good at the e-hugs thing (I'm hopeless at it myself; I'm as likely not to comment or to say something crass), and not everybody was around at that particular moment. But it goes without saying that I still appreciate the other lovely things you've done for me at other times.